Friday, December 4, 2009

On a lighter Note

My previous post was obviously at my lowest of lows!

I've begun to see things on a lighter note ... THANK GOODNESS! But I couldn't have done it without my fabulous, dear, understanding friends who were there to give me the much needed prep talks.

I CAN DO IT! (and so can you :)

The power to change comes from within and what we hold on to.

So I let go of the deadbeat job/boss, got a better paying/more flexible job ( In the RECESSION!) and I couldn't be happier.

Next step is to declutter. Address things I've neglected for a while and let go of others.
How did I ever pile on this much junk( In my apartment/ closet and on my body)?
I had fun tonight rummaging through the closet and cleaning out boxes and boxes of worn out shoes, tarred belts, stretched clothes and what not.

I even had time to move arund the red couch;) I'm doing a house makeover!

Next step.. ME makeover. But I gotta take baby steps.

So.. here's to a new beginning.

XoXo.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving.

This year I hit my lowest of lows. I got “dumped”, had two cars get repossessed (one voluntarily and the other involuntarily), gained 40lbs with all the stress and consequently, ovaries stopped working. Accused wrongly and got fired at work. Everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong. I definitely have times where I’m still happy. It’s a constant effort to stay happy. I try as much as possible to ignore things and keep myself happy. I remind myself that when there’s life there’s hope. Today is just not one of those days.
I’m not encouraged to go out because I feel like the FAT friend. Clothes don’t fit either. But truth is there’s Fat in my body! So I’ll rather just sit at home and bond with the T.V.
In ALL of this, I give thanks!
I’m encouraging myself today with the story of the tadpoles. There was a lady who went to the store to buy a tadpole; she wanted her children to watch it turn into a frog. She gt home and kept it in the aquarium. They watched and watched for weeks but these tadpoles did not grow or change into frogs. Finally after several more weeks, she went back to the store where she got the tadpoles, and asked the sales man there why her tadpoles never became frogs. He listened to her and asked her if she put a big rock right in the middle of the aquarium? There had to be a rock, sort of a stumbling block; for the tadpoles to climb. They needed to climb this rock for their tails to split, in order for them to become frogs.
I’ve learnt God allows stumbling blocks in our lives, for our tails to split. So we can grow into what he’s planned for us to be.
So in relation to this thanksgiving season, I DO have plenty to be thankful for.
I’m thankful for Life and Life abundantly.
I’m thankful for inner peace that knows no bounds.
I’m thankful for joy unspeakable.
I’m thankful for God’s unconditional Love.
I’m thankful because He says everything works together for the good of those who love him.
I’m thankful because He has said in blessings he will bless me, in prospering he will prosper me.
I’m forever grateful because He has plans. He said and I quote “for I know the thoughts I have towards you, thoughts of good and NOT evil... To bring you to an expected end”.

Can you see why I get out of my lows? It’s because HE has plans…
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!